That ‘stiff upper lip’ thing

Mental ‘health warning’

This post is being written because I, like a lot of other people out there, have suffered from a mental health condition. It still rears its ugly head at times though I manage it as best as I can through various means. Some of these have included ‘talking therapies,’ such as Cognitive Behavioural Therapy*. Others include self-help such as exercise, hobbies and having fun events to look forward to. I’ve also used medication (yes, pills. Something I’d rather not take, but for fear of the alternative I have been reluctant to come off of them). My GP seems reluctant for me to wean off them completely. Cynics may argue that of course GPs want you to stay medicated as that is providing their pay-cheques. I’d also like to think that GPs have their patients’ best interests at heart too.

The conditions I’ve dealt with are anxiety and depression. The pair seem to go hand in hand. In my experience, they seem to flare up most profoundly at times that I feel overwhelmed, or under higher levels of stress. Of course, stress is a normal part of everyday life. It motivates us and gives us the incentive to get our work done and deal with the necessary daily/weekly/monthly chores in a timely manner. But when the stress becomes unmanageable, that’s when the self-doubt, helplessness and despair comes crashing over me like a tsunami-style tidal wave.

I am not alone in feeling like this. Lots of people experience these unsettling emotions. Maybe not necessarily to a degree that affects their life to an extent that they have to withdraw from a ‘normal’ existence for a couple of months. But enough to feel that they are merely surviving rather than necessarily living. Why do people get to such a despairing mode?

Nature vs Nurture

We are all born as unique individuals. We may be naturally ‘laid-back’ and easy- going in our characters. Little things might wash over us like water off the back of a duck. Some of us, conversely, may be more tightly-strung. At the right tension we work perfectly fine, like the strings on a musical instrument. When wound too tight, though, we are more prone to suffering high levels of anxiety. When these are exacerbated through experiences that life throws at us, we can essentially ‘break.’ Life experiences that can trigger a severely altered mood include

  • more demands at work.
  • a house move.
  • bereavement.
  • relationship breakdown.
  • money problems.
  • Other major life-changing event, e.g. becoming a parent.

In our upbringing, the behaviour and actions of our parents are those that we become acutely accustomed to. For most people, the personality traits they adopt as they mature will be inherited from their parents or caregivers. If a parent is overprotective and strict, this may lead to the child (and corresponding adolescent) to become cautious. In addition they potentially feel anxious about making mistakes for fear of criticism. A more relaxed and encouraging parent, on the other hand, will inspire more confidence in their children. The child/ren will feel more comfortable with trying new activities and set-backs won’t be feared to the same extent as for a more ‘sensitive’ individual. This is not just about how parenting affects our predisposition to suffering mental health conditions. As an individual I need to accept responsibility for my innate ‘limitations’ that also helped contribute to my illness.

Keeping up with the Jones’s

In this ever-changing world, we are bombarded with media that projects success as having the latest commodities and devices, as well as having immaculate ‘show’ homes and new cars. In addition, professional careers are seen as the way to be ‘upstanding citizens’ in society. Having had a more professional career, as a scientific research assistant, and now currently being in a low-paid ‘unskilled’ role, I can honestly say I pretty much feel the same way about myself in either situation. A lot of the way I feel stems from lower self-esteem. As a fairly introverted person, I was fairly studious though not naturally academically accomplished. I got good GCSES, followed by A-levels, and subsequently a Batchelor’s degree in a biological science. It was an achievement for me to come out of University and enter my first ‘proper job.’ More so since at one point in my A-levels during a ‘wobbly’ period, I was told that I ‘wouldn’t be able to cope with going to University.’ Getting that finely-pressed and crested paper certificate sure showed them!

But just getting a degree doesn’t seem to be enough. We are told we need to get further degrees or doctorates to progress up the career ladder. Extracurricular activities such as sports, music and volunteering are touted as being Curriculum Vitae essentials as well. Now, I’m all for bettering myself, learning new skills and taking up new hobbies / interests. But there needs to be balance. It’s not necessarily going to be of benefit to become a semi-professional dancer if the money you need for lessons is competing for more essential items such as housing costs and nutritional food.

Be more realistic instead of materialistic

In more recent years, I’ve learnt to settle for less. Financially in terms of income, and materially. I have bought quite a few sex toys (*okay lots of sex toys*, and lingerie too). But I rarely spend the full RRP on items that I buy. Some items are testers, so they have been free in exchange for a review. More expensive items I have purchased only when heavily discounted. Moreover, we don’t go out as much as we used to or have as expensive holidays. This has had more to do with parenting responsibilities though, and the expense of childcare / overseas travel.

Being more realistic extends to what I can reasonably accomplish in a given timeframe. Since I tend to overthink, I sometimes may take a bit longer to get started on a task. Not only that but I sometimes underestimate how much time I will need to complete something. I’ve attempted to manage mine (and other people’s) expectations. This helps avoid disappointment plus associated ‘knocks’ to my confidence. Challenging Automatic Negative Thoughts (ANTS)* is a practice I frequently go back to. In times of feeling overwhelmed it’s easy to become blinkered by ‘black and white’ / all-or-nothing thinking patterns. These do nothing to help a situation, instead they paralyse us into a sense of inadequacy and indecision. I reason with myself that a decision is better than no decision. As long as I’ve considered it from as many angles as possible then I’ll ‘cross that bridge’ if and when I get to it.

This is becoming a longer post than I anticipated. To prevent myself procrastinating and worrying if what I’ve written is ‘good enough’ I will throw caution to the wind (for a change) and hit publish! Please feel free to comment if you have had similar experiences, or if you want to discuss any of the content in more depth.

I may not wish to go into all the details of my own depressive episodes, so please respect that, but I may be able to offer some advice.


*Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) and Automatic Negative Thoughts (ANTS) are only mentioned briefly in this post. If feedback from readers suggests that further discussion of this type of therapy is warranted, I will write more in a future post.

Dildo training

If you can’t fix it…

Then Gym can! We all need a good work-out, and dildos are no exception. That ‘love muscle’ needs to be strong and supple.

So in between getting your kit off, make sure they get theirs on and work up a sweat!

Lift, press, lower and repeat! It’s the only way to get ripped like this 7″ extra girthy realistic dildo from Lovehoney.

Lovehoney Desire Luxury Rechargeable Rabbit Vibrator

This little bunny desired a new Rabbit

The Lovehoney Desire range had been on Bunny’s radar for a while recently. As a lover of a good bargain, when the Desire Luxury Rechargeable Rabbit was offered on the Deal of the Day page for only £40 it seemed like the writing was on the wall, or at least this blog post!

My new ‘bunny’ arrived promptly, as always, and the sleek cardboard box gave the promise of something better than some of the other rabbits I’ve tried. What’s more, inside the box, my new silky smooth silicone toy was safely stowed in a black storage case. On opening the case, I found the instruction manual and USB charging cable, in the left hand mesh compartment. The rabbit was secured in the right hand side, and sealed in a clear plastic case (for packaging purposes only).

 

I followed the 2-hour charging procedure, before excitedly letting my new ‘pet’ enter my ‘bunny hole.’ Charging this beauty was really easy; the jack can be put through a hole on the storage case, so that the vibrator can be charged discretely. Another bonus and a unique feature that I’ve only just encountered for the first time with a rechargeable toy.

There’s a hole in my case, (don’t ask for Delilah!)                                        Jesting aside, it’s a brilliant feature that makes this case and the rabbit superior to all my others thus far.
Silky silicone

The silicone is wonderfully smooth, and the buttons are very intuitive and user-friendly. There are three buttons; the (+) to increase the intensity, the (o) to change between modes and (-) to decrease intensity. Speaking of modes and intensities, the Desire Luxury Rechargeable Rabbit has 8 modes and 12 intensities. The modes are listed in the manual as:

Not so descriptive graphs. Being a science geek in a former life, I’d at least like some labels on the axes!

Make of that what you will, its not the most descriptive page in the manual. I would describe them as follows:

  • Pattern 1 = Constant vibration in ears and shaft.
  • Pattern 2 = Constant vibration in shaft. No vibration in ears.
  • Pattern 3 = Constant vibration in ears. No vibration in shaft.
  • Pattern 4 = Slow wave pulse in the ears, continuous vibration in shaft.
  • Pattern 5 = Fast wave pulse in ears, continuous vibration in shaft.
  • Pattern 6 = Intermittent pulses in shaft with steady back and forth of the ears.
  • Pattern 7 = Faster pulses in shaft, with two pulses in ears followed by a longer vibration.
  • Pattern 8 =Fast pulses in shaft with a heartbeat ‘lub-dub’ style pattern in the ears.
It’s all in the ears

Being a lady that needs clitoral stimulation to climax, my favourite patterns are 1 and 3. If the ears aren’t going, I won’t be coming, it’s that simple, so Pattern 2 does not a lot for me. With Patterns 4 through 8, some are better than others, but it really is about the ear action for me. Hence continuous vibrations in those work best. What else can I say about the ears? I really like the ears on the Desire Luxury Rechargeable Rabbit, as they seem to stroke all around my clitoris and in my inner labia as well like two smooth fingers giving a very pleasurable massage.

Come ‘ear my lovely!

Last but not least, there is a travel lock feature that means the Desire rabbit won’t suddenly spring to life when in transit or stowed away. Simply press and hold both the (+) and (-) buttons for 5 seconds to lock or unlock. The lock will also be deactivated if you plug the rabbit into a USB port.

Fulfilling this Bunny’s Desires

My final thoughts on the Desire Luxury Rabbit, are why didn’t I get it sooner? I rate it 9.5/10 based on it’s orgasm capability, it’s ease of use and the level of detail and thought that has gone into creating it. The only reason I’m not giving it 10/10 is because I don’t like some of the patterns. Otherwise it’s my ideal rabbit!

Buy yours at Lovehoney, for £64.99.

Currently the Desire range has an offer of 25% off when you buy any two Desire toys!

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Labels

This is a random topic, and why am I writing about labels on a sex toy reviews and erotic fiction blog, I hear you ask… Because labels are everywhere. From the clothes we buy, the sticky ones we wear identifying ourselves in a workshop and so on. So it makes me think, what do labels do for us? Besides giving us information about a product or a brand name, or putting an occupation alongside our name to ‘define’ what we do?

So yeah, they’re clothes labels but if you’re stuck in a rut, a ‘new look’ may be what you need…

The answer is simple, they don’t really do a lot for us. So you might feel more ‘put together’ when you’re wearing your best suit tailored by your favourite designer. But take off that suit and you’re still you. Is a cleaner/janitor any less of a person because of what they do? Hell no. We are what we want to be essentially. Because at the end of the day actions speak louder than words.

And if we don’t like a label, what can we do then? We can change it for another! Whether you want a new career, status, religion or sexual orientation, life is fluid. If something isn’t working for you then ‘re-brand’ it, or do what the celebs do and re-invent yourself. Its not always easy, but its better than being in a situation that makes you unhappy or worse still, one that makes you feel ill or worthless.

So if the label fits and it makes you happy stick with it. Otherwise, try something different for size. You never know, you might like it. If you don’t you can always go back to what you were before.

And if anyone is wondering what my labels are, then you can find out here:

  • I’m a wife, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, cousin, niece and grand-daughter.
  • My day jobs are in the leisure and tourism industry. But I trained in a biological science background.
  • I like food, but I’m no fancy cook.
  • For me, my ideal holiday would be something cultural mixed in with some relaxation. Warm, sunny climates are my preference to colder ones.
  • My hobbies are keep-fit classes, walking, trying out new sex toys, and comedy movies. I also enjoy getting creative with my scrap booking stuff, to make memories.

 

 

Show Yourself Some Body Love

It is important for us to appreciate our own bodies; lumps, bumps, warts and all. Some brands have created body-positive marketing campaigns, for example, Dove. But in the adult industry it can be difficult sometimes to see that there is no ‘normal’ body; male or female. This article will hopefully encourage readers to ‘show yourself some body love.’

We all have body ‘hang-ups,’ whether we’re confident extroverts or shy introverts. Whenever we get naked in front of a partner, we think “do I look attractive enough?” These thoughts can be useful at times, in motivating us to change things we’re not quite happy with. Our diet and exercise regime frequently need checking, to improve our fitness, muscle tone and skin clarity. However, these thoughts can become more intrusive and in some cases, quite damaging.

Stereotypes

As I’ve mentioned, the adult industry has a lot to answer for in creating stereotypes of designer bodies in a sexual context. Women have ‘neat, flesh-coloured labia that blend in with the rest of their skin tone and don’t protrude excessively. Men have well-endowed, substantially girthed penises that don’t have excessive foreskin or non-retractable foreskin (a condition known as phimosis). We are bombarded with these images in adult entertainment and media, as well as on social media platforms. This can create a great deal of anxiety in some women and men, particularly younger ones who are discovering their sexuality. Generally, they are also more likely to make comparisons with and among their peers.

In an age of image-consciousness, cosmetic ‘enhancements’ are becoming more common. In the adult industry this has led to increasing pressure for actresses to have surgery to appear more ‘attractive’ sexually. Procedures such as labiaplasty are being undergone. The consequences being that members of the general public are seeing these operations being touted as life-changing ‘super-cures.’ It seems like people are unable to accept that there is no ‘normal’ in terms of how we appear, whether sexually or otherwise. We all have unique anatomical differences, and our genitalia is no exception to this. Projects such as the Great Wall of Vagina are helping raise awareness that all of us are different; they empower us to embrace our uniqueness rather than trying to change our appearance to fit in with media-projected stereotypes. More work like this is needed to help us show ourselves ‘body love.’

Lose your ‘hang-ups’ to get close-up and personal

Next time you are about to undress in front of your partner, whether you’ve been with them a long or short time, don’t question whether your breasts will appear lopsided or asymmetrical. Forget about the curve in your penis. Never mind that your labia protrude; your partner will have more to play with! If you have a longer foreskin, fret not! Just cast your clothes and your body ‘hang-ups’ over the side of the bed, and focus on having fun together!